not longer am i an artist right now
im a writer
recent events have influenced me
so i have to write about them to deal with them.
i have a blog on blogger but i shall not sure it personally on here
if you want it note me
i may give it to you

in short
you will see more poetry from me

im not dead.

im currently up to my neck with work and stuffs like that. college and then work and then homework and then my personal life.

ugh

so basically

i was an nsoa (new student orientation assistant) at the beginning of the year. that was a helluva fun. it was fuckin amazing. i have never been so tired and happy at the same time in my life. i would do it again in a heart beat, and im going to next year. hopefully.

my dorm room is a mess but my room is a mess so its nothing

my roommates are amazing. we actually talk...unlike last year : |

social life. hm. there is a guy i like, and he likes me...but then there is a girl that i really like, and im not sure if she likes me back : / oh well only time can tell.

so yeah thats a quick update

i had this in my head for the time that i was awake last night...untill 7 in the morning...i had a cryin breakdown...it sucks being sick


ahhh..ohhh
Well hello is this thing on
Is anybody listening
A brand new day has begun

The first thing that I want do
Make sure that you feel it too
So I'm not the only one

C'mon lift me up (it's a brand new day)
Open up a lil happiness today
So I can be someone new
C'mon and lift me up (to a better way)
Open up a smile on another face
So I can (feel something new)

Open up some happiness
Open up some happiness
Open up some happiness

Oh, excuse me
*Ahem* *Ahem* let me clear my throat
So you can hear clearly every word spoke
Today I woke feeling lovely
Happiness overflowin' knowin' somebody loves me
Just think yesterday I was down and out
Now there's not a single thing for me to frown about
And the same thing can happen to you
Smiling so hard my mouth look like a capital "U"

I want the sun to shine
All the time
Is that too much to ask
Oh, I want to have some fun
I want all my friends to come
Cause it's now or never
Learn the words and sign together

C'mon lift me up (its a brand new day)
Open up a lil happiness today
So I can be someone new
C'mon and lift me up (to a better way)
Open up a smile on another face
So I can (feel something new)

Open up some happiness
Open up some happiness
Open up some happiness

Your heart deserves your trust
A choice made for all of us
The sun will come back tomorrow
There's a message in a bottle
So come on I'll meet you there
There's enough sunshine to share
As long as you know
The bridge between us is a rainbow

C'mon lift me up (its a brand new day)
Open up a lil happiness today
So I can be someone new
C'mon and lift me up (to a better way)
Open up a smile on another face
So I can (feel something new)

Open up some happiness
Open up some happiness
Open up some happiness

when do you decide to throw in the towel
when do you decide to quit
cuz there is no use to continue with what you are doing
life is supposed to be difficult
but is it supposed to be so difficult
to give you unbearable thoughts?
to give you unbearable pain?
life sucks. plain and simple
dont be yelling at me cuz thats how live goes
i've seen life go before my eyes without warning
you have no idea what is going on
you dont understand
you just dont
friends no longer talk to me like they used to
friends stab me in the back
friends are being enemies
just forget anything i have said
you dont understand